Throwing Javelins at the Moon
The Rockrose Moon (A Serial Fiction) Part 20
It has been so wet and miserably weird out we haven’t had much traffic at the Gelato place. Even though there are some big readings at Powell’s these days. Writer celebrities.
I guess you could say I am a loner but mostly because it is cold in the ballroom where I live, it is the season of men. I would be stating the obvious to say they are so predictable in their sexual fantasies. The creepy thing now is that even I, at 23 am getting too old.
But still, I’ve spent days lately with my hands wrapped around a cup of herbal tea at Howard’s condo in front of the fireplace. He builds a lovely fire and uses real wood. Wasteful and divine.
It is too miserable even to go skiing. I like cross-country and ice skating but for some reason never took to downhill. I love hanging out in the lodge while Mr. God’s Gift to Man is off on the slopes. The snow still amazes the San Francisco girl in me, a place where it never snows. I always want to make angels. Someday I will.
I used to go out to the tiny ice rink by the ocean in The City before they tore it down. It was my secret place during the last bad year at my aunt’s house. On Sunday mornings it was my church of ice.
It was just the ancient lady all in pink with too much lipstick on and me; she of course had her own skates. I rented mine, like I rented the time away from the craziness at home. They always always played classical music and it would just be the two of us going round and round with a little fog from the ice and if we were lucky some slanting sun through the skylights.
I can still smell that ice and the rotting old wood of the place and stale popcorn and wet socks. Hear the slam of the lockers as the kids and their young moms started to arrive for Hockey practice.
Once I thought I’d write a series of poems about the girl they found frozen in ice a few years back on a mountain in Peru or Ecuador. She was a sacrifice, the ice maiden, a blow to the head. Those mountaineers carried their perfect cargo oh so carefully all the way down the mountain. A pawn frozen in time. A missive from our past.
Last year this time we were just finishing up Christian’s chapbook and getting ready for his reading at Borders.
I used to think a featured reading meant something. We argued for weeks about self-publishing and how it was a kind of selling out. Now it is all anyone really every seems to do except for the chosen few. And that has nothing to do with their work.
I finally finished reading the Marge Piercy book. In the end she whines about how hard it is to be her and have to work still at making a living after all these years.
Some days I wonder if the ice maiden, however roughly and then reverently handled by her keepers, didn’t have the better end of the deal.
It has been so wet and miserably weird out we haven’t had much traffic at the Gelato place. Even though there are some big readings at Powell’s these days. Writer celebrities.
I guess you could say I am a loner but mostly because it is cold in the ballroom where I live, it is the season of men. I would be stating the obvious to say they are so predictable in their sexual fantasies. The creepy thing now is that even I, at 23 am getting too old.
But still, I’ve spent days lately with my hands wrapped around a cup of herbal tea at Howard’s condo in front of the fireplace. He builds a lovely fire and uses real wood. Wasteful and divine.
It is too miserable even to go skiing. I like cross-country and ice skating but for some reason never took to downhill. I love hanging out in the lodge while Mr. God’s Gift to Man is off on the slopes. The snow still amazes the San Francisco girl in me, a place where it never snows. I always want to make angels. Someday I will.
I used to go out to the tiny ice rink by the ocean in The City before they tore it down. It was my secret place during the last bad year at my aunt’s house. On Sunday mornings it was my church of ice.
It was just the ancient lady all in pink with too much lipstick on and me; she of course had her own skates. I rented mine, like I rented the time away from the craziness at home. They always always played classical music and it would just be the two of us going round and round with a little fog from the ice and if we were lucky some slanting sun through the skylights.
I can still smell that ice and the rotting old wood of the place and stale popcorn and wet socks. Hear the slam of the lockers as the kids and their young moms started to arrive for Hockey practice.
Once I thought I’d write a series of poems about the girl they found frozen in ice a few years back on a mountain in Peru or Ecuador. She was a sacrifice, the ice maiden, a blow to the head. Those mountaineers carried their perfect cargo oh so carefully all the way down the mountain. A pawn frozen in time. A missive from our past.
Last year this time we were just finishing up Christian’s chapbook and getting ready for his reading at Borders.
I used to think a featured reading meant something. We argued for weeks about self-publishing and how it was a kind of selling out. Now it is all anyone really every seems to do except for the chosen few. And that has nothing to do with their work.
I finally finished reading the Marge Piercy book. In the end she whines about how hard it is to be her and have to work still at making a living after all these years.
Some days I wonder if the ice maiden, however roughly and then reverently handled by her keepers, didn’t have the better end of the deal.
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